Today I had my first day of a class centered around internet media. I found myself instantly wanting to compete with my fellow classmates once I saw some of their awesome blogs. I kicked myself for that knee-jerk reaction.
It was a realization that I am still trying to overcome years of parenting and conditioning to strive for the top. When is it enough? How many followers do I need to find happiness? How much validation do I need to feel like I am worthwhile?
When do I truly buy into the notion that collaboration and cooperation are more beneficial to me then stepping on the throat of the guy (or girl) who is in my way on my climb to the top? I don’t know the answer to that. I do know that I had an instant reaction and motivation to try even harder and get even better because my emotions got the better of me. The saying that “success breeds contempt” has never been more obvious to me than it was today.
To all of you who read the blog. Thank you. I am your biggest fan. I love you all for what you do, for sharing your thoughts, feelings, emotions, and creative inspirations. I love you because you make me feel human and you give me food for thought on a daily basis. I hope you will continue to read this blog and that we all get to know each other just a little bit better.
A life alone is a struggle. I feel like too many of us just put our blinders on and focus on reaching the top and being the best no matter what it takes or who gets in the way. I don’t think the world HAS to be like that, but it still doesn’t change the fact that is IS like that.
Through the people who follow this blog I have found others who share these sentiments. The world may never be a better place, but at least we can hope for it and promote it and never give up trying to bring about the change we want to see.
They say a photographer’s images are in essence a self portrait of the photographer himself. I like that notion. The fact that maybe as a photographer I am subconsciously attracted to things that convey how I feel as a person in the world or what mood I am in. Tonight I feel hopeful and optimistic, and I see that in this image.